Blogging No More

It's been a long time since I've last logged on the web. I've missed seeing my blog, hehe.. :D I'm actually writing some good posts that I would be showing to you guys in the coming days. Hope you'll be there when it shows up. :)

Anyway, a lot had happened the past few weeks. And most of the time, I'm depressed, I just hope I can get over it. Nakakapagod na kasi magkunwari na masaya ka pero hindi naman pala.I just don't when I should tell them. And I hope, no would ask why: kung bakit ba umabot sa ganito. I just want them to understand me. That the cream of the crop got sour and stupid. I just want to set things right. Start a new life. And maybe even going out of school just to let myself know what to do with my life. Maybe take a vocational course. Basta kahit ano; magbago lang buhay ko.

Still, I'm holding on to HIM. And to her, thank you for understanding the stupidity of the person you love.

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Bob Ong Had Just Re-Inspired Me

Last night, I have finished reading Bob Ong's 5th book "Stainless Longgnisa." This one's really different from the other books tht he wrote. Or maybe he really makes sure that every book that he releases would not seem like a trilogy or a continuation of a previous book. Anyway, he talks about how he wrote the previous books and how he is with his life as a writer.

If anybody of you had read his book "ABNKKBSNPLAko?", you can somehow see a resemblance of what is happening in my life right now, specially on the part wherein he tells us about his college life. Hindi ko nga alam pero pakiramdam ko noong unang nabasa ko ang libro na iyun, nakita ko na ang mga mangyayari sa aking buhay pagdating ng kolehiyo. Hindi nga ako nagkamali.

Right now, Mr. Bob Ong had just reinspired me to continue with my plans of writing my very first book. I have been planning on doing this for a very long time. And all of those planning wasted my time until my interest would wane again and my plans would be put on hold. Again, I'm reviving my plans on 'releasing' my first ever book.

I'm giving myself 3 months to finish my book. What is my purpose in writing my book? Just like every writer, I hope that through my book, I would be able to inspire others; most specially those of my age. I would want them to learn something from the kind of life I had and try to understand others who may be experiencing the same life I have. I would also want to inspire others to write too. I really do believe that something that is can change a lot or everything: from view, opinions, perspectives nd even principles in life. Whether it be in the form of a blog, newspaper article, pamphlet, poster or a book, it will have an impact on its readers. Kahit pa napaka-walang kwenta nito. You would still be affected.

That's why I created this blog. Not to gain popularity or a lot of friends but to make a difference in the life of my visitors. I would like to give them not what they want but what they need to know. In the coming days, I would be trying to review the 'tradition' of my previous blogs to create articles talking about different topics.

And I do really hope that I can finish my book. And to start the ball rolling, I'm reading a lot of books right now. I'm currently reading on "Looking Back" by Ambeth Ocampo, the famous historian that really rocked the world of Philippine history. The book is a collection of article from his column t the Philippine Daily Inquirer. It is quite an old book but a good read most especially if you think history is boring. Watch out for the part wherein he discusses about the atrocities that the Americans committed during the Philippine-American War. Baka biglang magbago ang tingin mo sa Amerika at baka suriin mo ngayon kung hanggang ngayon ba ganun pa din ang ginagawa nila.

Regarding my job hunting adventures, as I have mentioned in my previous post I didn't get the job.And I really do hope to find one. At least, I got some idea now how the application process works at the call centers. I really need a job so I can help my parents pay our debts to a lot of people.

As with my life right now, I feel much closer to God now. I think I have somehow finally found my peace in Him. I do hope my plans and decisions have His blessing and that it is according to His will. I do really feel much better now. Thank you for your prayers.

And speaking of gratitude, I would like to feature my Top Ten Entrecard droppers. Here they are:

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• BROOD Online - The Information Exchange Portal - 9 drops
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Thanks for the drop guys. And thank you for the wonderful comments.

You might as well add you blog here: Million Blog List. I'm proud to be number 18 on the list! :D

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Pinay Sex Scandal and Job Hunting

The two aren't related. But the other one would probably help a lot in driving in pervert surfers in the net. This is my first try at using SEO. I have read a lot of articles discussing these SEO thing. Until now, I haven't tried doing that.

Today, I started my 'real' job hunting spree. Because most of the job huntings that I've done in the past were through online submission which gained no results. I went to a certain call center company along Commonwealth Avenue. It is not a popular or well-heard of call center company in the Philippines. Itago na lang natin ito sa alyas na CTI.

Together with my girlfriend, we went there at about 9 A.M. We passed on our resumes to the security guard on the counter and waited until 10 A.M. for the exam. Then we took the exam. Gladly at hindi naman sa pagmamayabang, I got the highest score in the test: 201 points out of I think 250 or 300 items. It was really a good start. Rozie also passed.

Then they asked us to come back by 1:30 for the oral exam. Then to make the long story short because I'm running out of time here at the internet cafe, the interview was done through some sort of a phone. When it was my time to take the test, the questions that the interviewer asked were a lot different from my batch mates. We were given a paper with words that we should read but I didn't read it. I was quite confident with how I answered the questions.

Pero sumablay ako sa tanong tungkol sa trabaho at sa sweldo. I just answered honestly that the high salary was the first thing that motivated me to apply in this job and to help augment our family's income. Then he asked me about the salary, I just said that I expect my salary to be not lower than 10,000 pesos. Then he asked me if 13,000 pesos would be alright. I said yes and even said that it was a lot bigger than my mother's.

Basta, the experience was worth it. Madami pa naman diyan.

Crying Man

Hindi ako nahihiya na sabihin sa lahat ng tao na iyakin ako. Yes, I would cry every now and then and just before I slept last night, I cried.

Lately, I've been making a lot of wrong decisions. And right now, I'm still suffering from the consequences of those stupid decisions. I have not been studying well this semester. My grades are really bad. An my only hope is that one subject which is not really related to my course. Even with my course, I'm having second thoughts on whether I should continue or not. And even with my alma mater, the school that every student would want to enter, I'm thinking of leaving it.

It may be another stupid decision but I want to escape from the pains it has caused me. Oo, naghahanap ako ng isang mabilisang pagtakas sa mga problema na kinakaharap ko ngayon. I know that there is no short cut way to success. Everything has to be done step by step. There is no such thing as instant prosperity and good life. But at this point in my life, I would rather choose to escape from it all.

Last Friday, my mother and I went to Quiapo church. It was not part of our plans for that day but since it was still early and it was Friday, we decided to go there. It was my first time to go there. I've heard a lot of stories that many have received miracles through the intercession of the Black Nazarene.

And so I prayed. But again, without knowing why, I cried. My prayer was simple: Help me get through this mess I've created.

And I hope, this would really end as soon as possible.

And to someone out there, I have to do that so that I can see you happy, even if I'm not the one causing your happiness.

As for my blog, I would soon be closing down some of my other blogs. I would just try to focus on maybe two or three blogs.

and to HIM, up there, I would really want to start a new life, please tell me how to do it.

Follow Christ.

Serve the People!

Back From Hiberbation

It's been a long time since I got busy on the net. Since we've got no internet connection at home, I have to save up a part of my allowance just to be 'online.' But I hope this year I can get to buy a new PC (kasi tinotopak iyung PC namin sa bahay at ayaw gumana ang internet) and a fast internet connection.

Well, my Holy Week have been somehow fruitful although I spent most of time sleeping., hehe.. Anyway, I just stayed at home and tried to reflect on what I am going to do next with my life and with what is happening to my beloved motherland.

This coming week is an exciting one. New opportunities. And hopefully a new chance at life.

Kahapon ko lang narealize kung gaano ba kahalaga ang muling pagkabuhay ni Kristo at pati na ang kahalagahan ng Sabado de Gloria.

Black Saturday or Sabado de Gloria is the holiest of all the nights we have. Much holier than the Christmas night. Sapagkat sa gabing ito, matagumpay na nagapi ni Kristo ang kamatayan sa pamamagitan ng pagkabuhay na magmuli. That's why we have this joyful and glorious Easter vigil celebration to commemorate that single even that cause the salvation of mankind from sin.

Except for a few un-holy scenes that I saw during last night's Easter vigil (e.g. some teenagers making out in a corner), it was indeed a glorious night.

More updates on this blog on the next few days.

Follow Christ.

Serve the People!

Randomization

Let's start.

First is about Marian Rivera. Oh yes everybody knew her these days because of her hit TV show 'MariMar' wherein she plays the lead role. Well, I just noticed that when she answers questions in an interview, it seems that she does not know what to say. Or I must say she cannot give out 'intelligent answers.' I don't know with other people but as for me everytime I would hear her answer, hindi ko mapigilan ang mapailing sa mga pinagsasabi niya.

Well, maybe it can be attributed to the fact that she's still new. But hey, a lot of artists and stars out there who are even 'newer' than her are a lot more 'intelligent' with the way they answer questions.

Maybe the Marian fans out there can answer why she is like that. Anyway, I just noticed it and I can't help myself to write this on my blog.

Next, Pacquiao.

He did it again. He crushed another Mexican fighter. But honestly, I wasn't contented with how he fought Marquez. I thought he would pin the man down on that fateful 3rd round. He could have done better. Well, I'm still happy that he won.

I'm just a bit upset when I saw the faces of corruption around Pacquiao. Well, sino pa nga ba? They should have just stayed outside and waited for him to come down. Hindi iyung para silang mga tuko na mas excited pa ata kay Pacquiao. Nasira tuloy ang view. Haay.. Anyway, the Filipinos salutes you PACMAN!

Last, Holy Week.

I really need this vacation. I need to refresh and recharge my soul. The way things are happening in my life now are becoming too emotionally stressful for me. And I need to rethink a lot of things. And I need to reconnect to HIM. I have been disconnected for quite a while.

And to everyone else have a blessed and fruitful Holy Week.

Follow Christ.

Serve the People!!!

A Billion Thank You's

Lately, I've noticed some of my visitors have been dropping by their comments on my posts. And also a lot have been sending me emails giving me some suggestions on how to improve my blogs.

Is this a sign that my blog is making its 'sense' on the internet? Maybe. And I'm glad about it.

To the people who take time to drop by their little comments on my blog, thank you. Your comments are most welcome here. Napakalaking tulong nito para mas mapaganda ko pa ang aking blog.

And to my dear visitors, thank you for coming back. :D All of you are of great help to me. I hope you are getting something from what I've been blabbing in my blog the whole time.

And to the following blogs whom I am very much fond of:

• BitterSweetCollide - I really love the poems here, nakakaiyak. :)
  
• Ms. Lalaine - Source of inspiration (family matters)
• Dabawenyang Iska - That particular post about her being an activist that prefers to be behind the scenes
• Pinay Mommy Online - For a new perspective about 'mommies'
• FallOutKee - Inspired me to create my own blog

And to the countless blogs that I have stumbled upon, I may not have remembered their names but the inspiration that it gave me helped me shaped my blog to the way it is today.

I might as well remove the chatbox of my blog to join this growing movement of "U COMMENT, I FOLLOW."

Also, Entrecard had also been one great help. It didn't only helped me to increase my traffic but know a lot of new blogs as well. You might as well want to join us. :D

And also again, LinkReferral helped me a lot in giving my site the traffic boost it needed. It is not an automated site so the visitors to your website are real people surfing the web.

And to Sulit for helping me find jobs and small time business. Talagang subok na ang Sulit. Dalawang beses na ako natulungan dahil dito. Una ay iyung trabaho bilang academic writer at pangalawa itong loading business ko ngayon. Malaking tulong talaga siya. :D

AdBrite had been good from me too but I have to still recieve my payments. Kailangan ko talaga kumita ngayon. Haay... Anyway, I'm still alive. :)

Basta, A Billion Thanks to everyone. :D And always remember:

FOLLOW CHRIST.

SERVE THE PEOPLE!!!

A New Beginning

New life. New beginning. It’s been three days since I turned 18. Now, I’m of legal age. I can get married. Buy those glossy magazines with cover girls in skimpy bikini without guilt. Drink beer, wine, gin, vodka, etc. legally. Enter those nightclubs slash prostitution dens. Watch R-18 movies without guilt again. And once I committed a crime, I won’t be turned over to DSWD but rather be put to jail.

But above it all these nonsense, new responsibilities and challenges awaits me. Although at this point, my life is falling down to pieces, I’m still here; fighting and struggling to get out of the mess that I created.

During the past year, I’ve made a lot of major decisions in my life. And I admit, this was the only time of my life wherein I’m actually deciding for myself. And most of these decisions were not favorable to others, especially to my parents. I don’t know if I made the wrong decisions but one thing is for sure; after this, I’d be a better person.

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No one really knows what I’m going through, no one. Although they may have a hint of it, I have not confide myself to anybody. Not even my close friends or even my… never mind. But there’s one person who knows it all, even though I’ve not told him. He knows what I’m planning to do. And I hope, he would not leave me, as everybody seemed to have left me.

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My main page for my blog has a new look. It was out of nowhere that I decided to change it. I’ve tried the new version of Blogger wherein you can easily edit out the page elements. I’m also trying to monetize my blog. Why? It’s a part of my plan.

And what’s that plan? No one knows but Him.

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I hope that this first major decision of my life after I turned 18 this month would help me save my life that’s falling down to pieces. I’m not an emo. But I’m too much emotional during the past years.

Enjoy my blogs.

Dennio

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To help my other blogs to get the attention it needed so much. Every month I’m going to feature one of my SEVEN blogs. So please do visit it. For our very first feature blog of the month and as a celebration of 18 years of my life:

Buhay ni Dennio

VISIT IT NOW.

Rebirth

I love the word: rebirth. We are all born once. But at some point in our lives, we would be born again. I’m not referring to the different Christian denominations/religions but to that state of being wherein you have just emerged from something so nasty, so painful and so dark that after everything that happened, you would turn out to be a better person.

And that is what I’m hoping for: a rebirth; a new life.

The past few years have not been so good to me. A lot had happened. But mostly, not so good events that really, really brought me down. And yet, here I am: alive and kicking.

I thought it would be all over soon. But as the days, months and the years pass by, it seems to be greater. More sufferings. More failures. It was just the beginning.

And the climax came on the last few months of the 17th year of my life. And even up to this time, hindi pa natatapos ang lahat.

Twelve hours ago, I turned 18. And yet, my spirit is still down. Really down. I’ve been actually sick for a month now. My cough won’t just go away.

Anyway, I’m still hoping that the following year would be better.

And to YOU up there, who is looking down on us, mightier than anyone or anything and who never left us in every step of our way. I’m sorry for doubting you once. I’ll never do it again. I believe you had a plan for me. And by the way, remember that once I told you: Paki batukan naman ako. And yes, it all happened. But you never did it to me. You made me do it to myself. And again, I’m asking you: please help me to live a new life with you. Serving you and the people you dearly love. Please. I beg of you. Maawa ka po sa hampas-lupang gaya ko.

And to everybody else, I’m asking for your prayers.

Thank you.